A Different Way

This money thing is tricky. All around me is the belief that you have to work for money, that you have to put in some effort, energy or service in order to receive it. That energy is a give and take, a back and forth where you are always efforting and then waiting to receive the toils of your efforts. Everything I see, hear and think tells me that this is the only way. It’s all I’ve ever known here on this planet. I’ve been doing it for lifetimes and so has everyone else. It appears as if this is just the way things are.

However, I have this knowingness that there is another way. I can’t see it, touch it or hear it but it’s there. I don’t know what it looks like in my everyday life, how it works or the details but it’s stronger than ever these days. I can’t fit it into my mind. My mind says that it’s not possible, it’s not possible for money and abundance to come to you without any effort on your part. You have to do something for it. You have to work, provide a service or figure out how to bring it in by thinking. My mind doesn’t understand the knowingness. How do you fit this knowingness into the mind? How do you make it understand? Maybe I really am crazy like everyone says I am.

Sometimes I do think I’m crazy and I have no idea what I’m doing. Sometimes I feel like I’m trying to break out of the laws of the universe of how energy works, like defying physics or the nature of reality. Sometimes the patterns of how I used to do things feels so heavy that I doubt myself. I doubt the knowingness that is constantly present. This knowingness says that I am already completely abundant, that I already have all the money I will ever need right here. I just can’t see it right now, it’s not here in my now moment. This makes me feel crazy. My mind tells me that I have very little money because it’s not in my hands. I can’t see it in my bank account or in my wallet, therefore, it doesn’t exist. I feel like I’m living in two worlds, the physical world where I don’t have much money because I can’t see it and the other world, the world that I can feel where I have unlimited amounts of money. How do I bring these two worlds together?

The knowingness also tells me that I don’t have to do anything at all for money and abundance. I can just let it come to me, simply because I am aware of it. I often doubt myself and this knowingness. Can that be real? Can I really live and create a world where energy serves me without any effort on my part? I look around and I don’t see anyone else doing this. I don’t personally know anyone who is experiencing this in their lives. Everyone tells me it’s impossible. And that’s when the doubt creeps in, that’s when mass consciousness sucks me back. I cry and try to ignore the feelings and the knowingness. I try to think about going back to the old ways and getting a job or starting a business to earn money but I can’t do that for very long. The knowingness of the other way is always there pulling me back out.

Then I remind myself that everyone used to think that the world was flat and that at one time we also believed that the earth was the center of the universe. I remind myself that what we perceive as reality can be changed, that as soon as we are aware that there is another way, we create it. Maybe I am one of the “crazy” ones that is just crazy enough to break us out of old patterns and into a new way of doing things. Maybe I am the one who changes society, the one who they first call crazy and then call genius. Either way, it’s happening. I can’t go back to the old patterns. So now I guess I just have to sit and watch the two worlds merge. It seems I can’t do anything else.

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  1. I feel much the same as you. I was fired a week ago, a day after I felt, that as much as I had loved my job, I was now bored. I don’t even think I qualify for unemployment payments. I don’t have more than a month of money to get me by and I am considering not getting another job. I have had times where I was so aware of feeling how energy follows my own consciousness especially when doubt does not exist…but yes I also have my mind who tells me the only way is mass consciousness way. I will be anxious to hear how this goes for you!

  2. Thanks for reading and commenting Arongia. I’m anxious to see how it works out for me too, for both of us! I know what you mean about being bored working. I haven’t had a job for three years and I can’t imagine going back because it was so boring, among other things. I can’t put myself in that place anymore of doing the same thing day after day, having someone else dictate what I do with my time. I tell myself that if I can’t go back to the old way, there’s got to be something else out there for me, a different way. There must be for you too.

  3. Yes, I feel the same Lindsay. For now I am just focusing on doing things that feel expressive that my True self wants to express and even that can be a challenge at times when old aspects tell me just to sit around.

  4. Magnificent post, love it and I know there are many of us out here who are experiencing similar truths… floating in both world, no world, one world… experiencing… observing… I gave your blog post to my husband to read too, to show him IAM not the only crazy one. I know and patience is my virtue at the moment. Lovely to meet you too via the masters hub x Barbara

  5. Barbara, you made me laugh out loud about showing your husband! Thank you so much for reading my post and sharing. I had a feeling that I wasn’t the only one experiencing this. Yes, I think patience is the best thing for me too right now. There’s nothing else I can do. Very glad to meet you as well!

  6. Thanks for sharing and yes I can feel that too. I feel rich and often I’m stuck for cash and I do work and like it sometimes and i don’t want that to be the source of my abundance and I know it can come in other ways and I don’t want to go hungry ( or my family )….. I would love to invent a credit card that can convert the rich feeling and rich energies into this reality ! Like a magic crystal card. I have so much that money can’t buy and what ever else I need I would just love to be able to buy ! so if I can imagine it, it will happen!!!!

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