The Fear of Feeling

As a child, I was terrified of my emotions. When I was nine I started having anxiety and panic attacks. They were random panic feelings that seemed to come out of nowhere. I didn’t know there was a name for […]

A Different Way

This money thing is tricky. All around me is the belief that you have to work for money, that you have to put in some effort, energy or service in order to receive it. That energy is a give and […]

Body Image

In March of this year, I let go of trying to heal myself and control my body in any way. My main challenge in awakening has been my body and my health. I was trying so hard to fix myself […]

Breaking Open

I believe that when you are sick enough for a long enough time, you have an opportunity to open up to it. Or you can say, the illness breaks you, if you can allow it. I know this seems strange, […]

Letting Myself Receive

Certain scenes from my childhood have been playing in my head lately. They are from different ages but they are all variations on a theme: I am inviting someone over to my house for the first time. My parent’s house […]

Dressing My Truth

One of the most helpful things I found along the way in this experience of self realization is Dressing Your Truth and Energy Profiling. It’s a program developed by Carol Tuttle where she categorizes all people into one of 4 […]

Coming Out as the Real Me

About two years ago, in the midst of a very dark night of the soul, I deleted my Facebook page. I was one of the early adopters and had been crafting my profile since I was in graduate school in […]


Oh my god, I’m blogging! This experience is bringing up a LOT of stuff for me, specifically with how the world is perceiving me. This is what it sounds like in my head: “You’re being too preachy. You’re not being […]